09.03.12 Truth & Wisdom
“I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.” – Anais Nin
This quote by Anais Nin truly represents to me what freedom is. Living means suffering, error, risking, giving and losing. This is how we postpone death. To me this represents freedom. To accept that life is a full spectrum of feeling and colors and that we must dance in the chaos, to dance through the range of the emotions that we are gifted as humans. This to me is freedom.
I have felt in my personal life that freedom was graduating, or getting validation from a degree or certification, traveling, attracting a beautiful and loving partner or friend. While all of those things can bring you happiness, the dependency on them can actually rob you of your happiness. The magic of the universe is that it does indeed seem to have structure in the chaos, if you listen closely enough. To be a modern day mystic in a way, and listen with not only you physical ears but your spiritual ears. There you are able to know that true freedom is seldom a straight path. In fact, the path to freedom usually comes with curves and falls and dancing and pausing, of giving and receiving. A true dance with the cosmos and with life.
Freedom to me then represents accepting both the light and the dark and the more acceptance of how life truly works: the death of someone you love; being betrayed by a family member, friend or romantic partner; losing your job; not knowing your life’s purpose. Yes, the unglamorous part of the story that we call life. The mission is not to be happy all the time, and know it all and figure out how it all works.
True freedom comes in accepting that you will never know it all and there is a certain surrender and peace in that. In addition, that freedom comes in allowing yourself to postpone your death as Anais Nin says, “by living your life full out.” Freedom comes in by wildly listening to your internal guidance, to dancing to your own song and having faith that even when you feel sidetracked or alone, that too has a purpose. When you are ready and willing to see this, it can become your road to freedom.
If you stay stuck hoping that freedom comes from something outside of yourself, even if it is a positive thing, you will find yourself sorely disappointed. So go inward, and accept the truth of the life- the ups and the downs the happy and the sad the dark and the light. When it gets dark allow yourself to feel the dark, but, hold this deep faith that the dark brings forth the light. This is freedom.
How can we find our freedom by accepting life’s challenges just as much as life’s blessings? How can we begin to see the suffering as a blessing while still experiencing and not avoiding the sorrow that comes with the difficult times?
Remember- there is freedom in accepting the whole truth, the whole spectrum of emotions and the whole spectrum of colors. It makes life more fun, more honest and helps you feel truly free.
I would love if in the comments below you were able to share with others some of your dark moments and how they were actually a blessing in time, and how it provided a deeper sense of freedom for you.